Nobody knows it's empty
This smile that i wear
The real one is left in the past
becos u hav left me there


Nobody Knows i'm crying
They won't even see my tears
When they think i m laughing
i still wishing u were here


Nobody knows it's painful
they think that i m strong
they say that this won't kill me
but i wonder if they were wrong


Nobody knows i m praying
that u'll change my mind
they think i had let u go
when u left me behind


nobody knows i miss u
they think i feel set free
but i feel like i m bound with chains
trapped in the mystery


Nobody knows i need you
they say i can do it on my own
but they don't know i m crying
when i m all alone................

Kya tum bhi wahi chahte the jo me chahta tha. kabhi aisa laga to nahi..... ya shayad kabhi kuch aisa tha..Pata nahi....

Tumhari jindagi k apne sapne hai.. apni chahte hai.... aur apni hi soch hai.... un sapno ko poora karne ka apna tarika hai........ galati to mujhse hui ki mene tumhe apni soch aur chahat bana liya. galati to mujhse hui ki mene tumhare sapno ke baare me soche bina tumhe apna sapna bana liya....

Tum Bin

Tum bin kaise hai ye din
kaisi hai ye raate
Jindagi fir se sooni hai
yaad aati hai wo baate

thoda sa dard tha
thodi si thi khushi bhi
jis din tum juda hue
shayad juda hui jindagi bhi

DIL KEE BASTI PURAANI DILLI HAI
JO BHI GUZRA USEE NE LOOTA HAI!!

DIL KI BAATE HUM SAMAJH NA PAAYE
AUR SABSE PYARA SATHI HUM SE CHOOTA HAI

Ye lamha filhaal jee lene de.........................

Chahne jab lage dil kisi ki khushi.............
dilliagi ye nahi, ye hai dil ki lagi.......................

Tempetation was too strong to resist...... nd i m happy that i have not tried to resist myself.....
life is back.... and so is the madness to live the life again... isi pal me jee lene ka pagalpan..................

Aaj tumse baate kar ke aisa laga ki shayad jo kai saalo pahle kho gaya tha wo mil gaya hai. Pata nahi kyu par aaj bat karne ke baad bada hi acha sa mahsus ho raha tha. Abhi tak un baato ki khushbu dil me samaai hui hai. aakhir kaun ho tum jo meri kuch bhi nahi ho ke bhi meri jindagi ke ek aham hissa banti ja rahi ho........

Tum janti ho na ki me kin paristhitiyo se gujar raha hu. Jindagi me sab kuch hote hue bhi kuch nahi hai. sirf har waqt ek khali pan sa hai aur kuch nahi. Ise bharne ki chah me bus main bhagta rahta hu, yaha se waha, wahan se yahan.....

Is suni-2 jindagi me kuch aisa mila hai jo lagta hai ki humara hai, jispe bharosa karne ko jee chahta hai aur jisko kabhi bhi ye dil chodhna nahi chahta. Aakhir kai saalo baad aisa lag raha hai ki ye sunaapan kuch khatm ho raha hai. Aur ho bhi kyu nahi, aakhir mera wo saathi mujhe mil gaya hai jiska mujhe na jaane kab se intzar tha...................

wo masum si surat, wo bhola sa chehra, wo tirachi nigah se dekhna, dheeme se mjhe dekh k muskarana aur fir halke se hath mar k jaise mjhe neend se jagaana. hamari har mulakaat ki shuruaat aisi hi kyu hoti thi, me aaj tak nahi samajh paya. tum milti aur me jaise apni sudh-budh khone lagta. aisa lagta jaise ki tumhaare samne me main nahi rah jata tha. sirf tum rah jate the, aur me tum me kahi kho jata tha...................................

shayad hum dono ke beech kuch ankurit hone laga tha. shayad ek aisa rishta jise koi naam dena mere bhi mushkil tha aur tumhare liye bhi. hum dono hi k chahre ek dusre ko dekh k khil jaate the, par hum dono hi kisi aur k saamne apni baate karne se ghabraate the. kya tha ye. aisa kya saajha tha hum me jo hum kisi teesre k sath nahi baatna chahte the...

Aaj jab sochta hu to aisa lagta hai ki tum kahi mere paas hi ho, mere sath bethi ho, hamesha ki tarah mera hath thame. do saal ho gaye tumhe dekhe hue, aur pichle ek saal se tumhari koi khabar bhi nahi mili par abhi bhi aisa lagta hai ki tum yahi kahi ho, mujhme hi kahi ho.........

Abhi tak vishwas nahi hota ki hum itni asaani se alag ho gaye. shayad pyaar to bahut tha hamare beech, par kabhi use juban nahi de paaye. apni bhavnao ko kabhi shabdo me nahi dhal paaye aur isiliye aaj jab me khud ko dekhta hu to tumhe khone ka dukh saari khushiyo pe haawi ho jata hai.............

aisa lagta hai ki jaise kal ki hi to baat hai. tum wapas ja rahi thi, hamesha-2 k liye aur bus ke neeche me tumhare gamgeen chehre ko hansaane ki koshish kar raha tha. bus chalne ka waqt ho gaya aur tumhari un badi-2 aankho me aansu aa gaye. shayad jaane ka dukh tumhe bhi utna hi tha jitna mujhe chubh raha tha. aansu se bhari aankho aur bhar aaye gale se tumne poocha tha,"kuch kahoge nahi". aur mene tumhe hansaane ki koshish karte hue ek behad bachkana sa jawab diya," kya kahu, ab tum se nijat mil gayi, itne saalo se jhelna pad raha tha, ab din chain se katenge". tumhare honth to muskura uthe par aankho me aansuon ki nami aur gahri ho gayi aur ek dum se mujhe ye ahsas hua ki mene shayad apni jindagi ki sabse badi galti kar di hai........

Tum halke se hansi, wahi muskurahat jis pe jaan deta tha. aur fir mud k bus me beth gayi. me tumhe dekhta raha, kuch kahna chahta tha shayad par munh se shabdo ki jagah aankho se do aansu gaalo pe dhalak gaye. shayad wahi meri niyati thi, shayad tum bhi sab samajh gayi. Bus chali gayi aur me door tak bus ko dekhta raha. Us din me bhi roya aur mere sath aasman bhi, jisne toofani baarish ki jhadi lagaa di. shayad isliye ki koi mera rona sun na sake, shayad isliye ki koi mere aansu dekh na sake............

Tumne wada kiya tha ki tum pahunch ke phone karogi, aur hum hamesha baat karte rahenge. do saal ho gaye, mujhe tumhare phone ka intzar karte hue par aaj tak wo intzar khatm nahi hua. Har bar jab bhi ghanti bajti hai to aisa lagta hai ki tumhara phone hai par wo ahsas aur khushi kisi aur ki awaaz sun ke fir dafan ho jati hai. ek minute, phone buj raha hai. shayad ye tumahara hi phone ho.......................................